Monday, May 9, 2016

Knowing Your True Self!!

Knowing your true self....
      It has been a few years since I have posted a blog. So I figured I would come back and talk about some real issues that I am certain we all deal with. Knowing who we really are!! and no matter what race or religion we are and practice this is common. I have found in my life I struggled trying to get to know who I was and it started at a very young age. I tried to emulate who I thought people wanted me to be. I followed everything other girls around me did growing up, because they were liked, popular and seemed to have it all so this made me work overtime to be more likable, and have the look of success. Being picked on and singled out as a child all the way through high school caused me to grab on to characteristics that were not mine. I tried to be just like anyone I saw that had more than me or was doing better than me (in my mind). I tried chasing after meaningless relationships/friendships I could be considered someone in the eyes of man.
     This has been an issue I have struggled with on into adulthood. I thought getting married and having children would give me a sense of fulfillment, but I noticed it made me graduate to a new level of being fake. I wanted to be the wife and mother that held a job down, cooked, cleaned cared for her kids and never got tired. Yes I am a Christian, but I would never give that issue over to God to heal and work out of me. Until I got completely tired of being bound by the enemy, people, labels and even myself. I started to really get in my word and it was like I was reading about me. I found that my Identity is  in Christ and not man. 

*Ephesians 1:4 Even before he made the world, God loved us and chose us in Christ to be holy and without fault in his eyes.
*Jeremiah 1:5 I knew you before I formed you in your mother's womb. Before you were born I set you apart and appointed you as my prophet to the nations."

     These scriptures helped me see that I was important to God for Him to love me and chose me before he even formed the earth. He knew me before I was even born or thought about. I used to wonder if it was true when people would  say this scripture to me, I never believed it until I got in the word myself. My identity didn't start when I found my first friend, it didn't start the first time I` fell in love, or gave myself to a guy. And I say gave because I would put all of me on the table just to feel wanted and needed by someone and never get anything but grief back. Many tears were shed because I didn't know who I really was and the gift God put inside me.
I tried to have best friends, it never worked because I was told I was weird, unusual or different, I stuck out like a sore thumb, I let peer pressure get me, I did everything and tried everything I could just to see where I fit and belonged, IT DIDN'T WORK.  I fell hard into depression contemplated suicide many times all because I didn't know who I was. I didn't realize the words of death I spoke over myself had power behind them, and I believed the lies about myself because it became a part of me.. Until I read this:

*Proverbs 18:21 "Death and life are in the power of the tongue, And those who love it will eat its fruit".

     I was amazed everything I was going through or felt was found in the word of God, by Him knowing me before creation He already knew what I would face and go through. My outlook on myself started to change, I started see myself as a victor not a victim, I started the enemy I was a child of God and he could not feed me lies anymore. I started to forgive myself from past mistakes because I was forgiven by God. And I had purpose in the earth.

     I no longer craved others opinions of who they thought I was, should be or do with my life. I was no longer crippled with the fear of being alone because I was different. I have begun to love who I am as an individual. I had to believe I was good enough, I had to know that it was OK to get tired I couldn't do everything myself or by myself. I had to know it was okay to be just me once I figured out who I was, and I didn't have to work overtime to fit in with the ways of the world.

*Romans 12:2 "Don't copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God's will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect".

     Even after knowing all of this the enemy will still try to get us off course, you still feel the pressure to fit into the ways and mindset of the world. But knowing that we are accepted by the Father above and that's all that matters then we don't have to be like Susie or have the latest things like Amy. Everything comes in due time. But you just being you is the most liberating feeling. You are beautiful, You are enough, And you are loved by God no matter what you do or have. Its OK to think for yourself, its OK to have your own dreams and aspirations. Let your true self shine bright from within, let go of the masks and fronts, if people don't accept you and understand you for just being you then its not meant for them to be a part of your journey!! You don't have to succumb to people to feel validated. Love who you are and were made to be.
Do you know your true self..

Sunday, September 9, 2012

New Day!!!!

Its a more time for walking in the past...Let all the old go!!!! including all feelings memories gestures whatever it may be, if you have moved on and you have made a choice to move on in your mind and in your heart to move on then why keep carrying all the old baggage. if you want to lose the new in your life then keep on with the old. I have made up my mind to keep moving forward not looking back because God has blessed me too much for me to turn back now...What choice are you going to make?????

Monday, August 27, 2012

Goodafternoon all.. Havent been up in here a few days but i have busy busy busy...hope you all are having a lovely day...Remember be an original not a copy of anyone else...Be strong you will make it...dont let anything stand in your way....

Friday, August 24, 2012

There is a point and time in your life when you have to stand up for yourself if you are allowing someone to continuously run over you..Not even that, you don't have to be a welcome mat for everyone to wipe their feet on. Be strong, stand tall and hold your ground. You can walk in Love and still be firm. Sometimes its best to keep still or be quiet until things pass over but when its cool and calm, you have to deal with what is going on. Im learning everyday to do the same thing. But do it in the love of Jesus! If you ask Him He can help you get to that point. The sooner the better!

Thursday, August 23, 2012

Beauty Within...

Being You is the best person you can be. Once you realize that you are a beautiful person from within no matter your outer appearance you are taking your first steps to being whole. Beauty is more than just a cute face, nice body with all the accessories, it starts from deep within you. God made you beautiful, and the most intricate parts about you He knows. And you are BEAUTIFUL TO HIM...There is beauty in how you talk, how you walk, how you live from day to day...Dont ever let anyone tell you that you are not Beautiful or that you do not have the essence of what they feel beauty is..Their definition of beauty most of the time is based on your outer extremities..or what they will get out of you, What is your definition of yourself?. Remember your beauty lies within You! Let God show you who you are in Him..
Do you feel beautiful?

Introduction to Me!!

Hey Guys,
  This is my first blog so i am getting the hang of it and getting used to it.. I hope that in the days to come you all find this site helpful in your own personal lives..I Love helping others and sharing. Now that was not always easy because of the wall i kept up from ppl...but that is another story that i will open up later...I am so excited for this new journey in my life, and all the changes taking place...Its a new thing, a great feeling and its helping me just starting this. But My name is Chantee`Silver, I am first a child of GOD, a true believer. I am married to a wonderful man Samuel Silver @Zech13_9 (twitter). That is my sweetheart he is so supportive of certain things that i want to try, like this for one...He tells me all the time i need to open up and speak.. so here goes. Just knowing that he is there for me makes things so much better and puts them in a different light, I love the challenge. I am a mother to two beautiful kids, they mean everything to me...My daughter just turned 4 and my son is 9 months. I am a stay home wife and mother, i enjoy what i do. Because this is something i used to dream of. And yes sometimes it is hard and you have to take a break and get out and breath but overall its wonderful...I love stepping outside of the "NORM" the familiar places, because its so much more that just that. But its all in having the faith and believing that you can do it and having the courage to make the first step..And even if this touches nothing but one person i am happy. and if no one ever sees it this is helping me release also, so all in all its a great thing all around. Step out, take a chance...Today!!!
Beauty in its Simplest form!!!